I am not sure what to do right now with my language learning in 2022… I am just going to write some thoughts down below, sentences and paragraphs will be all over the place but I hope the questions I have come out with some sense of coherence and perhaps people can throw in their 2 cents.
So, basic run down… I have been definitely improving in my speaking confidence this year (albeit less significant than what I would have liked to have improve but I guess speed is not really something I should care about all that much) and have been able to say a lot more simple sentences but really haven’t been able to participate in conversation on anything more than a superficial level.
That being said, this year at Christmas, when people spoke loudly and clearly, and I actively listened like I do in my lessons at LingQ, I found myself understanding so much of the conversation. More than I ever have before and this has been genuinely really nice. To actually be able to listen and understand without even necessarily being given the context. However, there were still many times that I was in the dark which inevitability will be the case for some time yet.
So the questions I have for myself right now is as I feel that I am at a point that I can understand grammar lessons because I have sufficient vocabulary to do so, would it be worth my time and energy? The problem I have is that I find it incredibly boring and demotivating. I really don’t have much energy for it and being a medical student, not much time for it either… But, I have a sense that gaining some more conscious understanding of the grammar rules would enable me to participate a bit more in conversation because I will have a greater sense of security that I am speaking correctly, but also, I wonder, could it lead to me attaining more of the basic vocabulary units for active speaking rather than passive listening skills. I really don’t have the answer to this question of whether it would lead to this improvement… and I am wondering what peoples thoughts if i were to go on a narrow window of time, focusing on something that I don’t enjoy in-order to improve at something that may improve my chances of speaking. Or, should I continue listening and reading and just keep at it because it has got me this far already? Will those words just come as I do this more and more and continue trying to speak.